donald craig hawthorne was my pappy. he died on april 1th 2011. i remember when i would go to the pool at my nanny hawthorne's my pappy would come to the pool every day he could. every summer me and my older cousin alissa would ask him "what happened to your leg pappy?!" and he would always say to us "it got sick and had to be taken off." and this would happen every single year. but 1 year my pappy got sick so he was in the hospital for a very long time and couldnt come into the pool. and 1 christmas a year before he died we didnt get to celebrate it because he was in the hospital. i remmber the day as though it was yesterday, i was at school like any ordannary but i had to go to my friends because for that week my mom had been going to the hostpital to see him i guess she knew he was going to die. and i was on the bus getting ready to go to marinas when i felt a hand touch my back and at 3:00 exacitically i looked over at marina and said "something bad just happened to pappy" and she looked at me and said "i know" after we got home her dad took me too my aunt pats. when i was their my cousin desta and her friend and levi were there. i remember that we were playing hide and seek and desta and hewr friend scared levi and was shaking, i was holding his hand at the time and freaked out on them. then soon after my mom came to aunt pats and said "baby i need to tell you something" i looked at her and my nanny hawthorne and saw they were crying so i adimatically knew what was wrong i said "what mom" and then she looked at me and said "baby pappy died today at 3:00" and then i started balling. destas friend and her went outside and destas friend said VERY rudely "why is she crying!?!" desta looked at her and said to her "HER PAPPY JUST DIED!!!" and then the girl in the same tone went "oh". i saw a medium this year and my pappy talked to me... the women siad to me "did you fall the other day?" i looked at her and said "yeah on monday i fell why?" she said "when you fell your pappy tried to catch you." i started crying then she said "did you feel guilty that you didnt get to see him before he died?" i was crying and said "yes i felt as though it was my fault." she said "your pappy made it so you couldnt see him that way." then she said "every night before you go to sleep your pappy tries to cover you up with the blanket but cant." so every night when i go to sleep i always wisper "goodnight pappy i love you" then i go to sleep. last night i watched a sad movie called hatchi and i knew my pappy was with me. so pappy if your reading this right now i love you and miss you from the moon and back 1000000000000 times.